A Fitting Man
August 9th 2007 10:08
My last entry was a little while ago now...titled "Valentines Sux"...I stopped writing on my blog just after Valentines Day, also co-inciding with meeting a boy.
I found it difficult to write because in the first few months of "isn't he spectacular"ing, in between lingere shopping and bikinii waxing I found it difficult to find the sarcasm and resentment that soo often fuels my writing...well its back!
Cosmopolitan magazine dedicates pages upon pages to helping women find the perferct pair of jeans or bathers to suit their figur.Like the search for the perfect swimming costume or pair of fashionable jeans...I don't ever seem satisfied!
I'm suffering from partner pickiness, and one of the symptoms is picking on my partner...Things that wouldn't have even entered my single my mind, become reasons to break-up in my girlfriend mind.
I can see my "relationship" self doing things that my "single self" would have scorned... for example, I got infuriated the other day when my boyfirend slept through the day he was meant to meet me because he was out clubbing with girls (but he's just there for the atmosphere!-told you the sarcasm was back)....single self says "fuck him, call up a friend and go get a coffee"...."girlfriend self" worked herself into an angry/sad fit that had to be walked off through the shopping mall wearing a "sad face".
Also, I got upset when he didn't invite me to spend time with his friends that I know and also had their girlfriends there, who asked after me....after much discussion with my trusty support system I do beleive that these things are unfair and simply unjust....my single self screams "stuff it, go out clubbing without him, with lots of boys, then sleep through the next day and miss the date you had 'planned'"....instead, I'm pretending that I'm going out clubbing tonight....because I don't particularly like clubbing and I figure the only thing worse than pretending is actually going when you don't want to just to spite him.....
The problem with being partner picky is just like swimming costumes and fashionable jeans... most lycra and high-waisted denim doesn't suit most real women...even if this one fits... I can't help but wonder wether he makes my bum look big....
I found it difficult to write because in the first few months of "isn't he spectacular"ing, in between lingere shopping and bikinii waxing I found it difficult to find the sarcasm and resentment that soo often fuels my writing...well its back!
Cosmopolitan magazine dedicates pages upon pages to helping women find the perferct pair of jeans or bathers to suit their figur.Like the search for the perfect swimming costume or pair of fashionable jeans...I don't ever seem satisfied!
I can see my "relationship" self doing things that my "single self" would have scorned... for example, I got infuriated the other day when my boyfirend slept through the day he was meant to meet me because he was out clubbing with girls (but he's just there for the atmosphere!-told you the sarcasm was back)....single self says "fuck him, call up a friend and go get a coffee"...."girlfriend self" worked herself into an angry/sad fit that had to be walked off through the shopping mall wearing a "sad face".
Also, I got upset when he didn't invite me to spend time with his friends that I know and also had their girlfriends there, who asked after me....after much discussion with my trusty support system I do beleive that these things are unfair and simply unjust....my single self screams "stuff it, go out clubbing without him, with lots of boys, then sleep through the next day and miss the date you had 'planned'"....instead, I'm pretending that I'm going out clubbing tonight....because I don't particularly like clubbing and I figure the only thing worse than pretending is actually going when you don't want to just to spite him.....
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